Oh hay, shallow here!

Vanity.

I.. am so vain. I realized this while sitting next to my best friend on the couch, who also is very vain, but I love her.

I signed up for these dating sites a while back mostly because I was so sick of the bar scene, and wanting to avoid the bullshit part of dating. I wanted to basically see a profile of someone, and some pictures and tell if I was attracted or not.. okay, not quite in that order.

I've met a total of 4 people. The first one.. just.. no. Just.. no. The second one had some sort of trolling for ass agenda and I wasn't all about that, the third one I fell for really hard, and then he got disinterested, so I met the 4th, and then found out the 3rd actually cared, and then lied to him, and.. well, that brings us to the last few blog entries.

Anyway.. the only reason I met these people is because they passed my personal tests.

1.) Am I physically attracted? Yes. Yes I am.

2.) Teeth good? Yup.

3.) Funny? Seems that way (although 2 out of the 4 were not actually very funny.. it was more just annoying)

4.) Intriguing, mysterious, alluring, sexually charged? Again, 2 out of 4.. but one being the troll for ass everywhere one, so that didn't happen.

ANYWAY, out of these 4, only one went past the first meeting.. but point being, I get an ASSSSSSLOAD of messages daily.. and none of these people measure up to my standards. I am so god damn picky its retarded.

How am I ever going to find someone and fall in love and live happily ever after if I'm tearing people apart for eyes that are set too far apart, or a bad jawline? (I thank my best friend for introducing me to the appreciation of jawlines) Who am I to judge? I mean, I'm not perfect, not by any means.. but I've gone so long just sorta dating for personality, and then finding that I couldn't hold interest in a person because I wasn't physically attracted. So where are all of the good looking people with personalities and brains? Oh wait, a lot of them are dating ugly dumb people. God dammit. Wow, I sound shallow.

This is me being shallow. Probably because I had all those things I said I wanted in a guy, and then I fucked up. I don't foresee myself getting over this regret for a while. I just keep kicking myself for it because it's so hard to find all of this stuff in one person.. efff em ell.

Okay, done being vain and shallow for tonight.